What mess did I blunder into x___x!?

Omg... sorry for always letting you wait so long for my journal Updates.
At first let me announce the catcher of my Kiriban it was !!! (and yes, I was flashed, when I recieved the note in which she told me that she caught my Kiriabn XDD!)

Then I want to thank everyone for their kind support in general! I am really happy to be a part of such a great community <D! And thanks to all ma commissioners; I am terribly sorry that you have to wait SO long but I really don't get along with anything at the moment, let alone am I able to produce admissible pictures that come up to your requirements!
So just be patient a little longer, please >___<!

Now...well...to explain the title of this thingy here...
My life SUCKS, it really does at the moment. I have terrible family issues and problems which are really weraing me down to rock-bottom. I feel unhappy as hell with my current boyfriend. He doesn't give a shit on what I feel and what problems I am currently in. He is only interested in his problems and his life. He doesn't support me in such hard times, NO, he himself becomes one of my fucking problems...am I to like that!? No, I guess not... -___-!
Into the bargain I am currently on clinch with all my former close friends. None of them talks to me any longer, and if they do they yell at me for something stupid or they backbite me...
I can't stand all this shit at the moment. Additionally to all my social issues my school live sucks as well. I KNOW I could be better, LIGHTYEARS better but I just can't do it. My motivation got lost on the way...or so.

I don' tknow, what to do at the moment. I am trying to find new friends, get me a new circle of friends and so on. But then things happen here and there which really don't make it easier for me.
I know I am whining about things which are, compared to other people's problems, a shit but they really bother me at the moment.
All I can say is, that I am really happy about having , and at my side.
Dudes, YOU ARE GREAT!

Hope you didn't have to throw up from this shit-chat.
Thanks for reading my wowing and for all your patients with me.

Yours, sincerely,




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COMMISSION STYLE:
Sketch (no background, all sizes) 40 || 3$/ 2,40€
Black&White, Lineart (no background, only headshot-1/2 body) 50 || 5,50$/ 4,30€
Flat coloration (none-medium BG, all sizes) 70 || 8$/ 6,30€
Cel-Shading (none-complex BG, all sizes) 80 || 10,50$/ 8,30€
Soft-Shading (none-complex BG, all sizes) 95 || 12$/ 9,50€
I am not taking commissions in realistic style. Animestyle only!!!

COMMISSION SIZE:
Headshot 10 || 1$/ 0,80€
Bust 20 || 2$/ 1,60€
1/2 Body 30 || 3$/ 2,40€
Fullbody 50 || 5$/ 3,90€

BACKGROUNDS:
Simple BG 5 || 1$/ 0,80€
Medium BG 10 || 2,50$/ 2,00€
Complex BG 20 || ,50$/ 3,50€

NUMBER OF CHARACTER, ADDITIONS:
Additional Character +10 || + 1$/ 0,80€
Wish for special Pose (refering whether I consider the pose as hard for me to do) +5 || 0,50$/ 0,40€